just like a child

am trying hard to be open enouph ..

girlz what is wrong with me ..

i love having friends .. i love to feel like am social ..

but am sad because i miss some friends ..

anyway .. it was an amazing day .. its actually the 1st day In CNS i attend most classes ..which mean i only skipped 1 anatomy class ..

its good right ??

i do beleive its gonna be much better if i can concentrate on studying .. than on making the 100 cyper friends

its not funny .. i just could not handle myself .. spending those long hours on msn .. then sleeping at 6:00 am to skip 3 lecs

GOD .. i wanna concentrate ..

but as long as u read this page of my beautiful diary .. its abvious thats its not even one of my good quality ..

am moving fast from 1 subject 2 other .. even if there is no connection ..

anyway .. i putting a goal just infront of me

i ( need ) an A on CNS

there is a big difference between need .. and want

am just so mixed up because of all the ppl cant tell them apart ..

because its do kill me ..

so maybe its an abssesion..

one of my very dear friend has an obssesion .. which i adore

i love her passion with little tiny things should be made right ..

sometimes i even wanna be her ..

i dont think am jelous of her ..

or maybe i am ..

jealsy is one of the thing we bring from childhood..

thats why i feel like a child ..

and terribally i wanna grow .. because i need to ..

am turning on 20

so there is no point 4 these childish games ..

i told my friend today how much i need to grow up ..

its horrible to feel like ur the only child between the adults

so

am signing this with love