eveybody .. SOS

i know a friend which know a friend which know a girl just gut dumped

i hate when i hear this ugly stories
i hate all those superficials girls who spent nights crying on some1 ..
doesnt give a damn about them from the begining


1 of my friends used to say am shallow

another girl love to think that i am acting shallow

4 those 2

i becomed a freack

once i was this geeky girl .. who wanted to be cute .. wanna to look good

so

i am a freak .. i do care about those strange things .. i would rather spent time reading than shopping

but u just acted so hard .. that i became shallow

i just told myself a 100 time that i love shopping .. untill i really love it

i just said to my self that i need to look good .. intill i beleive it
i have to look good so ppl like me

what unuglyfact that i tried hard to change myself 4 others does not really mean anything to me

but i just become this freak .. who really do stuff she didnt like to be something she does not want

anyway do u remember this XX girl .. she just get broke up

am sorry 4 her .. but i really beleive she will be much better without him


anyway suseerly i still need something classy to attend a party my grandfa goin to make ..
i dont have any
and am almosr size 4 USA

so i will be more than happy if all my freaky friend who pretend to love shopping .. fing something sweet on this size to tell me the place and whats the thing

love u my readers

wish u a good romantic life with no tears or broke ups

and happy post

My shopping

i just came back from shopping
this time u bought my first skinny jeanz yaaaaaaaaaaaaay
am sooooo happy and finally i bacame size 26 which great news
i also bought a cuple of T-shirts
and 1 sweet nice bag in red 4m nine west

i love shopping like every other female on this planet ..
its amazing how diffrent clothes can change u dramatically and make bretty
and how just a new pair of jeanz make u feel

oh GOD

u will not imagine when i asked the guy in the store 4 size 26 ..
i was shouked how small it is

when i got home i was ready to struggle to make it fit .. but its just fit easily
i was super happy

al7mdullelah .. but this does not mean i should stop my struggle with food ...

and i really need sports..

anyway i once told u a story
about that girl who called XX

now am tellin u thats she is so confused

she is totally in love with this guy ..
but she is doing everything to make him hate her ..

so what do u think this girl should do ??


with all luck in ur quizes if u have ones like mine

happy post to u

My Day 14th of April

blank .. i just found out its easier to express urself in English ..

i think thats mean i already lost my arabic or something..

probably i lost my way in expressing myself


in another dimention there was a girl called XX this girl just feeled depressed..
so she decided to search 4 her man

A man would give her happiness
someone to give her any sence of security

once up on a time .. while she was searching she did found her man ..
there was only a little problem
little tiny 1

she was not his women

So

what could this beautiful .. so dadicated .. so talented .. so HAPPY girl do ??

will i may continue this story in coming posts or may not ..

anyway ..
Searching 4 ur 1 .. really make u miss him

because he might be just around the block while u giving ur whole attention somewhere else
and to someone else


am no happy .. am bored .. i do must study .. because wasting time is absolutely ME

and i did suffer from the qunsequince of losing time throw my fingers ..

anyway my dear readers

happy post .. and wish u a good weekend

to love or not to love .. its become a question

دائما أفكر ..
ربي ما حرم شي غير لانه خطأ
حرم الزنا لأسباب كثير درسناها صدق انا نسيتها و ما فيني اعيدها
و حرم العلاقات بين الجنسين لأنها تؤدي للزنا
بس ما تلاحظوا ان كثير اشخاص الحين يتقبلون الزواج عن حب
وش معنى هذا ؟؟
يمكن معناه ان العلاقات لا تؤدي دائما إلى الزنا
و بعدين احنا كلنا جدا معترفين ان الحب حلاااااال
و ان المشكله بس في طريقة تعبيرنا عن هذا الحب
بس اذا كان حب شخص صادق
بس لظروف حاليه مثلا منعته انه يكلل هذا الحب بالنجاح
فهل هذا يعني حرمانية العلاقه

طيب في شي ثاني ..
ليش جيلنا أصبح مهووس بالعلاقات
تقدري تقولي نسبة جدا كبيرة مصاحبه
الموضوع مكرر
بس نادرا ما ألقى جواب يعجبني
بجد
ليش احنا نصاحب

في ناس من السخافه انها تدور عن زوج

و في ناس تدور عن حب

و في ناس بتتسلى

و أحب أعتقد ان النسبة الأخيرة صايرة الأغلبيه

ما تعرفوا كيف قلبي ينكسر لما أدري ان واحد حب وحده بجد و بغا يخطبها و قالت له معليش .. انا ما احبك
او حتى العكس
وحده حبت واحد بجد و انصدمت لما تغير رقم جواله بكل بروود

و أحس ان المجموعة الأخيرة هي اكثر مجموعه شوهت صورة الحب
لأنها صبغته بصبغة
بعيدة عنه

فنفس الوقت انا جدا مؤمنة ان البنت المحترمه حيجيها نصيبها لين عندها ..
و هذا أحسن شي ..

بس ما يمنع ان في حب بجد في مجتمعنا
و لازم ما نلغيه
و في علاقات تنجح
يمكن ماهي الأغلبيه
بس موجوده

و أنا عن نفسي أحب أعتقد .. ان لو كل واحد حاول بكل مجهوده .. راح يوصل لحبيبه

و فالنهايه محد ياخذ غير نصيبه

just like a child

am trying hard to be open enouph ..

girlz what is wrong with me ..

i love having friends .. i love to feel like am social ..

but am sad because i miss some friends ..

anyway .. it was an amazing day .. its actually the 1st day In CNS i attend most classes ..which mean i only skipped 1 anatomy class ..

its good right ??

i do beleive its gonna be much better if i can concentrate on studying .. than on making the 100 cyper friends

its not funny .. i just could not handle myself .. spending those long hours on msn .. then sleeping at 6:00 am to skip 3 lecs

GOD .. i wanna concentrate ..

but as long as u read this page of my beautiful diary .. its abvious thats its not even one of my good quality ..

am moving fast from 1 subject 2 other .. even if there is no connection ..

anyway .. i putting a goal just infront of me

i ( need ) an A on CNS

there is a big difference between need .. and want

am just so mixed up because of all the ppl cant tell them apart ..

because its do kill me ..

so maybe its an abssesion..

one of my very dear friend has an obssesion .. which i adore

i love her passion with little tiny things should be made right ..

sometimes i even wanna be her ..

i dont think am jelous of her ..

or maybe i am ..

jealsy is one of the thing we bring from childhood..

thats why i feel like a child ..

and terribally i wanna grow .. because i need to ..

am turning on 20

so there is no point 4 these childish games ..

i told my friend today how much i need to grow up ..

its horrible to feel like ur the only child between the adults

so

am signing this with love