so fun i write 4 no1

i never thought i have the power to write nor express my feeling ..

but i always told myself .. am writing for myself

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there is no part of me want to be lonely .. but no part of me want to feel unwanted

But i keep doing it ..

lost 4 majority

ya

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u cant fight the river just flow with it

then what if the river try to drown you

just pull you down ..

Sometime u should swim against the river or u will die

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u Cant get what you dont have

ya U cant

now am dieing

i think this is going 4 ever

the pain the sorrow

i just cry on the past dayz

askin my self

but al7mdullelah i didnt regret it

i still think its all happening 4 a reason ..

and i just cant see it yet

Good bye 4th year

u were 1 of the worst years in my life ..

i want U to End badly

so fun i write 4 no1

happiness path

i keep thinking for hours

why am doing this ..

all the things in my life seems to fall at once

and its damn hurts

i dont beleive in love

i did once

but now i dont

but i beleive in happiness

because you can be happy .. if u didnt bother urself with the little details u can .. if u learn to like what u got untill you get what you want you can .. if you dont think so much about things hurted you in the past you can .

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i really want to live in anouther dimention .. sometimes i think my life would be much better without men in ..

i dont know why

i think am too lazy to build my own happiness so i let ppl do it 4 me .. i did that for months

and now

i cant build it back

i just cant .. i forget how can i do such a difficult assignment

so thats why i still searchin 4 my happiness everywhere

knowing that it should be inside me ..

and its just too hard 4 me to search there